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Mistake

Saint Icarus is different at night. Noise of the day fades into a stillness that almost feels deliberate — as the entire campus rested. The courtyard lights cast golden halos onto the cobblestones, their soft glow bending around every curve and corner with care. Leaves dance quietly across the path, brushing against each other like they were afraid to be heard. In the distance the wind moves lazily through the hedges, brushing past leaves like it has nowhere to be. Somewhere, a window hums — faintly, like it might sigh. The air is cool, easy. It settles into my collar without making a scene. Even the old stone buildings look softer at night — not warm, just less sharp. Everything’s still. Held in place. Then a figure turns the corner up ahead. She moves quietly, but not cautiously — like the path belongs to her. Her hair catches the lamplight as she passes beneath it, the strands glowing pale gold for just a second before vanishing into shadow again. Emily. I don’t need to see her face...

Real Help

Friedrich Nietzsche said that if you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss gazes back at you. I believe he was right — but he didn’t say what happens when the abyss starts whispering your name. My curiosity, my thirst for something real, dragged me one step closer to eternal darkness. Any sane man would’ve turned back by now. But I couldn't. I shouldn’t. I won’t pretend it’s noble. The truth is simpler — my own mind became too loud, too sharp, too overwhelming to ignore. So now, instead of fighting it, I’m walking to therapy like a good little patient. Dr. Adrian Kestrel. People say he graduated from Oxford, published papers on neuro-cognition and modern suicide ideation. Big words, soft hands. His reputation is clean — too clean, like a hospital sheet that’s been bleached to death. He looks like he was designed in a lab to be trustworthy. Mid-forties, lean, always freshly shaven. His jaw is sharp but never clenched, like he’s trained every muscle to look calm. His hair, salt-and-pep...